My update

Ok as I have trying to be focussed on Thomas I have been negelcting me. Yep so much is happening here that there is only so much one likes to bitch about at anyone time. It has been a rough week or two. With Thomas and his new found sleeping or non sleeping habits I keep forgetting that I need the rest and to take care of me. But it seems to be a mothers duty to put the care and attention of her child first, followed by her husband and then herself.

So me. Well last Thursday night I probably should have been admitted to hospital, but I am too scared about leaving my baby that I dosed my self up on the strongest meds I had and went to bed. It seems the Endometriosis maybe back again. As the HURENDOUS midcycle pain is back. I am talking when I stood up I had to have some one hold me or a wall to lean on otherwise I would sway to much and go to fall backwards. After sitting for a while with the heat on I thought it would be better standing. Boy was I wrong! And even after I took the morphine, I could still feel the pain, but my body was relaxing enough that I could cope with it. Very strange feeling and I would imagine this to be the way they discribe the use of pethadine in labour. No I don't imagine it IS that way.

So on a postive note. My progesterone level was really good at 42 this cycle. Now all I can do is wait. The plan is to see if I am pregnant or not, than if not meet with my Dr again to discuss options. Like surgery, and other treatment plans. Seriously I am not sure if we should give up trying or keep going. And money is a factor.