Anxiously awaiting

There are times when we anxiously await things. Depending on the desire level of this depends on how anxious one gets. Well I am still awaiting the monthly or not so monthly friend in my case to make her full presence known. Gahhh the witch is really really teasing me.

For the last 3 days cramping, than all of a sudden EWCM again. WTF. Seriously than at one point slightly (ever so slightly) blood stained mucus plugish (usually something that happens 1-3hrs before AF arrives for me), than NOTHING. Not a thing. Gahhh just start already, something. But just start!!

Than the mental game has me thinking maybe this is History repeting it's self. With Master T we drew up this kind of plan and fell pregnant Naturally just after (like with in 48hrs he was concieved) that plan was drawn up. Could we be that lucky again. Could it really happen like that even after 2 Dr's have stated we need IVF (with ICSI) to concieve again.

So my plan go nuts until Tuesday or AF arrives. If no joy by Tuesday, than test. If the test is negative call Dr T back and let him know that my stuff up last week has effected the results and I will try Provera again (after he possible does a blood test just to make sure...). I hate this waiting, Waiting and late arrivals make me anxious and unable to concentrate.